A STRANGE TRUTH
SCHIZOPHRENIA
The story that I will tell you is a real fact. A short
story concerning a small time period some time before, after and during a 3
days period, when I had lost every contact with reality. Afterwards, the
psychiatrists – having told them almost nothing – diagnosed a serious psychotic
incident. Now, after almost two years I share their expert advice that
everything was a fiction, but for me that period was my own reality and
everything that I am going to tell you seemed to be highly real.
The story starts some time before 24th
January 2011 in Thessaloniki.
In Greece
the situation was already very difficult financially and I had very little work
to, so there waw plenty of time to discover some new things.
I don’t remember exactly how and why it was started,
but step-by-step I started realizing some things, initially indefinable and
misty. At some moment I thought I was listening to a voice inside my mind, a
voice recovering an uncertain Truth.
Step-by-step I started seeing the reality and the life
itself differently. I had the impression that I had discovered a very good
hidden global secret. Hidden inside everything, inside an unhallowed code,
being everywhere from the science and finance to every religion of this world.
An unhallowed
code
hidden
inside
words.
The shock was very heavy. Everything seemed to be totally different and that
Monday morning I shared a part of the code on the internet, without knowing why,
only impelled by an undefinite voice, which was heard inside my mind, yelling
that I finally know. I did not have a single idea what would follow.
Later on, a friend of mine called me on the phone and
informed me that he would come suddenly to Thessaloniki, wishing to see me. To be honest I was afraid. It was the first
time that I was hearing him like that, as he was someone else. I thought he was
coming to hold me back from something without knowing what exactly.
He came in the afternoon at my office, we discussed
and yes, I realized that he was not my friend. He was someone else, telling me
strange things. I thought he wanted to hurt me. That moment a beloved person
from the past called me on the phone and told me something that I did not
understand. He advised me to go to Athens,
where there was a place for people like me. He realized that I had company and
I couldn’t talk and he hung up the phone.
The time had passed. I had made my friend believe that
everything was fine with me and he left.
I returned home and then I heard it even stronger and cleared than ever,
the voice inside my mind saying: “go away, go away now”. I don’t know what the
power that impelled me was, but I took my pouch, placed some things inside and
left. It was almost midnight.
I was going south, I was going to Athens, I was afraid and everything was confused.
I made many kilometres and I was listening music on the radio. I thought I was
listening to undefinite messages telling me that someone was trying to block me
from knowing the Truth, from uncovering the uppermost secret.
Suddenly, the voice inside my mind - which I started
believing that it was the voice of God -(who? I - an atheist - believed that I
was listening to the voice of God!), pushed me getting out of National Road and
thus, I found myself in an area located at the foothill of Olympos. Undefinite
voices this time, were asking me “how did you find us? How did you find us?”
and I did not know what to answer.
I stood at the end of a road. Everything was dark in
front of me and I was terrified. I went a little back and I parked the car. The
radio was still playing music and I thought that I was listening to messages,
telling me strange things, such as: “look the life you are leaving behind, look
at it for the last time”. I just switched off the radio.
I was awake during the whole night, scared and lost in
my thoughts. The next morning, I went by car until the end of the road and I
continued until the point that it was possible. The radio was turned off. I
went out of the car and made a couple of steps, when I heard loudly, like it
was inside my mind, priests chanting. The fear mastered me. I got inside my car
and drove towards Athens.
I turned on the radio and I thought I was listening again the messages. I was
hearing that the Truth must me uncovered at any cost, that millions of people
had died in order nothing to be ever uncovered and that everyone who had
reached the limits of uncovering the truth faced miserable death. Once they
were burned as witches. I was shaking from fear that I would face the same
situation.
I reached Piraeus
and for a lot of time I was driving around without any particular reason, while
the radio was turned off. I started feeling that I was trapped in a strange
game, in a ticktacktoe that you could never be a winner. The voice inside my
mind was louder and louder and was telling me that “only Love will set you
free, only Love will save everyone”. I
had absolutely no idea what was that meant and where it was guiding me.
I was feeling alone, the only helpful person crossed
my mind was a woman in Athens.
We had lost contact for a while but my feelings for her were strong, so I sent
her a message “you know that I love you, together in life and death”.
Naturally, the answer was expected. What should you reply to such a message
from a sender you never had nothing special. However, for the first time I was
feeling it truly.
I had to leave Athens.
I was feeling that the collar was squeezing my neck, I had to leave far away
and thus I begun for the airport. I was going to England, to friend of mine from my
childhood.
On the way to the airport, everything I had done in
the past and I felt guilty of, all the women that I hurt, all those things
torturing my mind, were crossing my mind. I cried, I cried a lot and I
apologized.
I arrived at the airport; I bought a ticket and
waiting. I was feeling that I was someone else, or that something wanted to get
into my mind. I shouldn’t get sleep, because I would be susceptible. I thought
I was smell; that a bad smell was coming out of my body. I had eaten and drunk
almost nothing for a whole day, I was hungry and thirsdy, but I could not eat.
I was
terrified.
I arrived in England. My friend came to take me from the airport. We were
going at this home. Inside my confusion I tried to segmentally tell him some
things, but he told me that if I insisted like that I should need a doctor. So
I remained silent. We arrived at his home, which was located in a small town
outside London.
I made a bath and sat for dinner. I could not eat anything, so I went to bed
terrified and given to the weariness, believing that when I wake up I would be
lost in lethe again. However, fate and God had different plans.
I tried to fall asleep, I let myself but I could not
sleep at all. I don’t know how much time had passed, but I had the feeling that
someone was examining my body in detail, trying to find out what was going on,
where was the problem, but unfruitfully. What had started it would not mean to
stop.
Suddenly I felt that I could not move, my body was
stunned, I could not open my eyes, but I was not feeling any fear at all. I
started hearing many different voices, I was feeling like a council was held
and I was the honorary guest. And then the voices started telling me a story.
They told my about a war, in a world far away, but at
the same time very close to our own world; A war in the world of spiritual
entities; A war without a winner, since the spiritual entities are Immortal.
The luminous and dark spiritual entities were divided into two opponents. That
war was ruthless. The luminous spiritual entities conquered and captured almost
every dark entity except for one; their leader, a very powerfull spiritual
entity, escaped from spiritual world and hidden in the darks between their and
our own world.
The voices told me that the cost was intolerable for
both sides. The war was so ruthless that every spiritual entity, participated
in it, from any of the two sides, lost their spiritual entity and their
consciousness were trapped in our material world inside an internal
purification procedure.
They told me that His first deputy, an ancient
luminous spiritual entity together with a race of luminous spiritual entities
came to our world from another world even further. They walked here in earth as
human beings. They told me that this race had superhuman powers and that their
voice could be heard up to God. This race would be the guards of Truth and
knowledge. They would be the instructors
as well as the punishers, in the purification procedure. They would be guards
of the intermediate world, where the consciousness would go when the human body
would die. If they had been purified they would be reconnected with their
spiritual body, if not they would return again and again until their total
purification. This race was dispelled all over our world and tought us the
Truth and Light.
The spiritual entities, who were trapped in our world,
initially knew the truth and they were continuously remembering, no matter how
many times they returned, while every one of them wanted to aquire its
spiritual entity again.
The voices told me that during the pass of centuries,
the race who had come as a guard of truth and knowledge was gruadually decayed
and its power was forgotten, but it was never lost. It was deeply engraved in
the blood of its descendants.
At the same time, the dark spiritual entity, who had
escaped and hid itself inside the intermediate world - as soon as the guards
were gradually forgetting their power – recaptured strength. Gradually, it
conquered the intermediate world and acquired confederates from our own world.
Consciousnesses, which followed him either with their own will, or because they
were mislead and thought that he was the God itself. To these dark
consciousnesses that the dark spiritual entity kept in the intermediate wirld
as confederates, the ability of controlling the human brain and awareness in
our world was given. The dark entity promiced to every one of them, that when
they will be sufficiently powerfull they could have their spiritual entity
again. They had been deceived.
The humanity fell into lethe. They were coming again and again in this world and
each time without memory or knowledge of the truth. Even if a consciousness had
been purified, as soon as it was arriving to the intermediate world it was
getting under the will of the dark spiritual entity and thus it was coming back
again.
Moreover, the voices told me that from time to time
His deputies were sent. They were spiritual entities, which contacted their
human body and their consciousness. The tried to tell the truth and open the
path again but it was too late. One of His deputies resisted almost until the
end on the cross, its consciousness was suppressed, his words were falsified
and the truth was lost for one more time. The conscuiusness of another deputy
of Him was subjected during his life and he falsified the Truth. He was known
as Mohammed. Another deputy of Him hid the Truth inside his teaching. He is
known under tha name Buddha.
The dark consciousnesses and their Leader were finally
very powerfull insinde the intermediate world. They were guarding the passages and
nothing could harm them there. The only problem was the existence of the
descendants of that Ancient race, the guards of Truth and knowledge, who were
engraved with the truth and the power in their blood and their language. A
ruthless
chasing
started
all
over
our
world.
Obscurantism of
consciousness was spread everywhere by the decepted leaders of the world.
Whoever deared to speack something different he was killed, because of fear that
he might be one of that race. During our modern times, whoever was about to
discover the Truth before his consciousness was set free and set contact with
his spiritual entity, he was led to madness with the use of messages inside his
brain. The only thing they had to do was to wait until the body dies so that
they return the consciousness again back to lethe.
The voices also told me that the dark consciousnesses
thought they had destroyed that race for ever, but they had done a mistake. Descendants of that race with clear blood line are alive and one of them
was me. Even in that way, this would not be a problem for the dark forces,
because they had the power to enter in the human body’s brain and enforce their
will, but for some reason they could not do it for me. In fact they entered
inside the brains of my own people (such as my friend’s), but again they did
not manage to enter my own brain. Someone or somewhat was protecting me.
And as it was such free, my consciousness had
contacted my spiritual body through which the spiritual entities from their
world talked to me. The bridge between
the worlds was set for the first time; the time for this enternal purification
procedure to end had come! And one of the remainings of that race would set
the way that the ascension and recontact would be done.
They asked me which spiritual entities I would like
for the humanity to walk with and I spontaneously replied Jesus and Buddah. A
NEW agreement was set that night, which would be sealed by God the next
morning. The decision was taken solid by every spiritual entity “take him up”. I
did have an idea neither what the “up” was nor what would follow and with these
thoughts I fell asleep.
The morning had come and it was a sunny day. I opened
my eyes and I saw in front of me a small statue of Buddah smiling and a picture
of Jesus when he was a baby. Buddah’s statue was already in the room, but the
picture of Jesus!!! It was in the baby’s room as I found out later. A feeling
of euphoria filled every corner of my body and mind. Everything seemed
absolutely normal. Nothing was changed and I remembered everything. I went
downstairs. The children were up and my friend had left for work. Even it was
Wednesday, my friend’s wife had called cleaners to clean the house and that
moment I heard the voice crystal clear inside my mind saying “go away, go away,
run”. I grabed a coat of my friend and I left the house.
I walked fast to an unknown direction. A little later,
I met a man, who was coming toward me and despite the cold he was naked from
the waist and up, while all his body was covered by tattoo. He was like a
deamon inside my mind. I started walking faster and passed him over. He stood
and watched me perplexed. Afterwards I was found in an open space area with a
clear view to the sun. The voice inside my mind told me to stop. I looked at
the sun, it was winter and its rays were not hot at all. I was looking at it
for a long time and I felt like I was reading the whole story of this world. I
felt like I was seeing the Truth face to face and the voice inside my mind
louder and louder prompt me to do something, to reach God. And then a Wish came
out of me totally spontaneously.
It was finished. I lowered my head from the sky and I
looked in front of me. Somewhere ahead, where many people, who were holding
their dogs tied. I turned my head right and I saw two women, who were holding
their dogs tied too, getting closer me. They seemed like witches jumped out of
an old picture. As they were passing me over the one woman spoke and told me
“your Wish was heard”.
Behind me a thickset man was
following. I looked him directly in the face, but I could not distinguish a
specific shape. He was dressed like a hunter or like a shepherd, he was holding
a pole and at every step he was hitting the ground. He had with him a huge dog
with golden fur, shining under the light of sun. But that dog was not like the
others. This dog was Free.
I followed him. He got inside a small forest and some
steps later he commanded his dog to sit down. The
dog
sat
right
next
to
me.
Then, the man continued,
the dog put his head in a fence like it was showing me the way for somewhere.
Both of them were drawn away and I jumped the fence
and I was found on the shore of a heady stream. Something was pushing me to
jump on the next side. I would do it, I was ready to jump and just on time I
heard the man hitting the pole twice on the ground. I jumped the fence again
and went out of the small forest, a little higher than where I had got in. As I
was coming out in the sun again I heard the voice inside my mind telling me
“don’t forget, whatever happens don’t forget”.
I returned back to the house of my friend, I took my packsack,
Buddah’s statue and Jesus’ picture and I left. My friend’s wife followed me by
car and catched me a little further. He insisted for me to go back, but I did
not listen to anything. I took a taxi and told the driver to take me to the
Airport. A little later the voice told me to get off. I got inside a forest and
started walking.
I was walking for many hours without knowing where I
was going. I didn’t feel cold, I was not hungry, I was not thirsty and I was
decided to get at the end of the trip. I was lost inside the woods, I was just
walking. Some time I was found on a platform at the shore of a lake. I remember
a lady with an untied black dog being around 100 meters away from me and two
men in a boat at the other side of the lake. Something pushed me to drink water
from the lake. I drank two sips and then a voice inside my mind started saying:
“in this way I throw you in lethe, with the dirty water”. I might lost some
minutes there, an empty space of memory, because the next thing I remember was
the black dog leaking next to me and the two men on the boat be next to me and
drawing away saying thank you, called me with my name.
I turn on the other side and go up the small slope I
passed over the woman with the black dog, who was looking at me very
persistently. Direct in from of me I saw a tree with a white balanced cross
painted on it. The voice inside my mind told me to make a circle around the
tree. I picked up some branches and I did it. I stood up with the back to the
tree looking at the sun. I was sitting there for many hours watching the sun
going down. Before the sunlight was lost many men dressed in white were running
around me. I was feeling that they were not just running, but a chasing had
started. I could not understand who was chasing whom. A voice behind and on the
right asked me if I needed help. I did not turn around to look, but I replied
that I have everything I needed. The sun
was set and the dark had fallen. I was sitting down and waiting I don’t know
what exactly.
Gradually the moon was on the sky. I was full. A shout
started coming out of my chest. A strange unworldly shout. It was not a shout
of fear or anguish, because they had totally disappeared and I felt nothing. A
shout that I didn’t know that a man could express. A
shout
looked
alike
a
dog’s howl. And then I understood. It
was a war shout, an invitation to battle.
I was holding tightly Buddah’s statue on my left hand and I had Jesus’ picture
in front of me. It was a battle that would be taken by the three of us
together.
“I believe in a God father of all” and “go behind me
dark” were the words that I was saying again and again. My mind was empty. I
was feeling that we where giving a battle behind the enemy’s lines, inside his
battlefield. At some time in the night I felt an arm touching me on my left
shoulder. I growled angry like a dog, without opening my eyew. Was
that
is?
Was
it
over?
I didn’t know. I was still
sitting there bowed and I continuously saying the same words.
I lifted my head and opened my eyes twice and I saw
the dark melting twice, being surrounded by light and a building like an
ancient temple started making its appearance. Like someone was telling me pass,
go. I thought to stand up, leave the circle and go toward it, to leave and step
on the other side. But something strong, something very strong held me back. A
person that my love for it, seemed to be an anchor held me back. No, I did not
intend to pass along by myself.
Later on, I found out that the last dark spiritual
entity was beaten that night. It was beaten inside its hide-hole, somewhere in
the intermediate world where the consciousnesses are gone when the body dies.
And not only it was beaten but it understood its mistake, it understood and was
forgiven and all spiritual entities together were full of light again. The
party had begun up there and they are waiting for us, the trapped ones of the
two worlds.
It was morning again. I felt exhausted, but everything
was crystal clear. Two days had passed without food or water, but I was neither
hungly nor thirsdy. I walked out of the woods and after a long time I was found
in a crowded area. I looked for a hotel and it was difficult because I didn’t
have any identity card with me. Finally, I found one, I had a bath and laid
down with the light on. I fell asleep quietly and heavily that night without
nightmares.
The next morning I woke up and I was feeling light. I
looked outside and I thought that I could fly. Of course I did not try it. It
was one thing left to do. To go back to Athens.
I got in a taxi and went to my friend’s house. I didn’t know exactly where it
was and we rambling for a while until we find it. There, I had another memory
space. I might lost some seconds. While we were in our route, the next thing I
remember was my door being closed, the taxi driver going back into its vehicle and starting again.
Finally, I found my friend’s house.
My behavior was peculiar for sure that time and
definitely an alarm was turn on that something was not going on good. My friend
had declared my disappear and everyone was upset in England
and Greece.
The police had come, but my mind was clear and I had contact with our reality
again. Of course I didn’t tell to anyone my adventure. A policeman was waying
some strange things. Probably he thought I was not listening, but I was
listening with my new ears and I was listening very well. Sometime I thought
that my knees were benting, like the whole world around me was benting. I resisted.
There are rules and laws and none can offend them, so
they let me go. My friend took me to the airport I took the plane and returned
back to Athens.
In the plane I ate the salad and drank some juice. The next days I would be fed
only by fruits and almost no water.
There my father, my sister and a friend of mine were
waiting for me. They had come from Thessaloniki,
but they did not look like them. Definetely my behavior was a little bit
strange, but it does not excuse their behavior. They were aggressive and angry
and they were pushing me to go with them. My father was telling me that I would
never excape from him, my sister was crying and was grabbed on me and was
saying to go to a hospital. Definetely they were not them. I had understood
everything. I finally knew the game and the rules, and my mind was protected.
None could enter. Jesus was standing on the right and Buddah was standing on
the left.
We went at an area where some policemen tried to take
me to the police department or the hospital. They were trying to put words in
my mouth, but I did not say anything. Then their pressure was unfordable. I was
telling them that there were rules and laws and they were not allowed to do
what they were doing. They were not listening and then inside my mind I asked
for help. Immediatelly, a man came he seemed to me like a homeless, and they
commanded them to leave me. He looked me in the eyes and I think I saw a green
blink in his eyes. I waived to greet him and he left. Then the policemen
accepted a telephone call and left me.
I booked a room in a hotel near airport, I ordered
some fruits, I took a bath, ate and fell asleep. The next morning, my mother
had come and they were trying all together to convince me to go with them. The
policemen came again and I accepted to take me to the police department in
order… to see what was happening.
A long time had passed and finally nothing happened.
They were sitting all close to me and they were trying to convince me. It was
pointless, because my mind and my soul closed their ears. I had to finalize the
trip. Afterwards, the police released my parents and I was alone waiting at the
police department.
I thought that they were trying to get into my mind.
It seemed insane to madness but I knew it was true. Later they brought a young
man, who sat next to me. Since the science had quit itself, they would try
older methods. Yes, he said “bring some water to the guy”. I said “bring me
some water” and then an empty space. However, what had started was not meant to
stop. Some seconds later I was recovered. Everyone was perplexed and they were
looking at me. They were standing up and they were talking. A policeman, who
had taken my cellular phone out of my packsack, put it back again and the young
man was next to me again, right where he was sitting before. A
little
later
he
was
drawned
outside.
They could not old me. I left and got in a taxi going to Piraeus. Inside the taxi the same atmoscphere
again. Heavy parfums, the taxi was smelling, the taxi driver was whispering, he
was trying to break me but pointlessly. We arrived at the hotel; I went at the
reception and saw the taxi driver running like a maniac and happy behind me,
asking me if I wanted something. He knew, he understood, it had started.
At the hotel I ordered some fruits and laid down and
then I heard the voice of my sister, not inside my mind this time but like it
was coming through a speaker from the ceiling. It was the first and the last
that I heard. She was telling me to go to the hospital. And then it was like the
switchers turned off.
The next morning I started with a boat, final
destination was Delos. It was left another
thing to do. I finally arrived after a few days. I climbed up the hill at the
ancient temple.
It was a thanks, a tribute to the first deputy of Him,
who arrived in this world as a higher than human, known as Xenios Zeus.
